Days like this

May 20, 2015HeavyCloud

I dried my tears, swallowed my pills, left my family, moved in a new house, changed my car, erased the pictures, closed the accounts, forgot the phone numbers, threw away the CDs, had one-night stands…
I really changed everything, but nothing has really changed. I just feel like a veteran of a war that I didn’t choose to fight, living with scars, bad memories and alcohol. What’s wrong with my heart?

derrickjknight May 20, 2015 / 4:41 pm

Sounds familiar, except for the pills and alcohol. I’m flattered to notice I’m in your inspired by list. Thank you.

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- HeavyCloud May 20, 2015 / 4:44 pm
  
  Thanks to you.
  
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calensariel May 20, 2015 / 4:58 pm

There’s nothing wrong with your heart. It just needs time to heal. And SOME of those cracks won’t ever GO away. My friend Plato’s Groove likes to quote the Leonard Cohen song Anthem:

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That’s how the light gets in

That light will eventually heal you. Be patient and learn to listen to what’s around you. We all carry cracks inside… And I really like the honesty in your work.

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- HeavyCloud May 20, 2015 / 5:03 pm
  
  Thank you Calen for your moving words. And thanks for quoting LC, I love his songs. And I love Plato’s Groove…
  
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  - calensariel May 20, 2015 / 7:16 pm
    
    And, btw, that light is already shining back out to help heal others…
    
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    - HeavyCloud May 20, 2015 / 9:51 pm
      
      🙂
      
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Saya May 20, 2015 / 6:17 pm

ur heart is having a difficult time putting its pieces back together…give some time..or a lot..do things which you like.. take care..

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- HeavyCloud May 20, 2015 / 6:19 pm
  
  Thank you Saya…
  
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hbhatnagar May 21, 2015 / 3:01 am

Coz it’s human and it beats.

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- HeavyCloud May 21, 2015 / 6:56 am
  
  Sometimes I’d like I could extract it and put it away in a box, like Davy Jones…
  
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  - hbhatnagar May 21, 2015 / 2:36 pm
    
    I know the feeling….
    
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arcade1775 May 21, 2015 / 4:14 am

When it comes to matters of the heart, I don’t think that concepts of right and wrong really matter. Just take care…

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- HeavyCloud May 21, 2015 / 6:54 am
  
  Thank you arcade…
  
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booguloo May 26, 2015 / 4:34 pm

All that stuff b4 would be funneled differently if you gave your heart away and the congregation said amen.

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