One hell of a month…

Too many memories colliding. Facts that were shouted out loud and changed my life forever. Fireworks on the Seine. Moving out alone. Birthdays that I can’t forget, including mine 😐 Sensory reminders crawling under my skin, my very own bittersweet Proust’s madeleine. No surprise if I feel down.

Escaping is hard. I need to stop writing while thinking of the only person who will never read. I can’t blame her, in her shoes I wouldn’t come here either. Maybe the blog title should change and the point of view evolve. But I can’t write about jokes or tips about how to live happy, that’s not like me. Melancholy stays, even while I try to drop the sorrow and the regrets.

I have some friends here who helped me a lot (even if they are not always aware of it) and I cherish all of you because of who you are. Even while I need to move on, I still need your ethereal hands to pull me up.

For now, let’s celebrate July. No challenge, no themes, no questions asked, just meet me on a summer beach at night and I promise you we’ll have that glass too many…

Thank you again for hanging around here. And have a great July everybody!

Much love to you all,

16 thoughts on “July

  1. Miss Evelyn July 1, 2015 / 3:16 am

    Can’t believe it’s July already. Half a year has passed. Unbelievable. As long as we are evolving we are good. That means we are going in the right direction. 🙂

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  2. calensariel July 1, 2015 / 3:30 am

    You have to know, lovely dude, that you’re not alone in your heartache. We’ve probably all had to deal with something similar. That is why it’s good to come together on a beach and drink one too many. We need EACH OTHER. You’re a part of our lives, too, you know?

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  3. YesterdayAfter July 1, 2015 / 4:44 am

    Just keep going…you are doing the right things, welcome July and keep writing 🙂 we will be always here to read 🙂

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  4. emergingfromthedarknight July 1, 2015 / 9:24 am

    Keep staying true to your soul. Cancerian time brings so many deep memories imprints on our soul. Melancholy had a place and you have soul mates all around. Hugs.

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    • HeavyCloud July 1, 2015 / 9:27 am

      Thank you so much. Cancerian time and an incredible full moon brought it all to surface. Hugs back 🙂

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      • emergingfromthedarknight July 2, 2015 / 5:46 am

        Yes I am aware at this time of year and most especially as the Moon in Capricorn opposes the Sun I (and so many of us so attuned) deeply feel the maternal Moon pain not only personal but collective.. the longing to love and be loved. That comes across so strongly in your poems. ❤

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  5. alinastamboala July 1, 2015 / 2:27 pm

    Take care of you little cloud :)). Enjoy your time and please come back safe and a bit easier. 😉

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