Lazarus

As the cheerless towns pass my window
I can see a washed out moon through the fog
And then a voice inside my head breaks the analogue
And says

“Follow me down to the valley below
You know moonlight is bleeding from out of your soul”

I survived against the will of my twisted folk
But in the deafness of my world the silence broke
And said

“Follow me down to the valley below
You know moonlight is bleeding from out of your soul”

“My David, don’t you worry, this cold world is not for you
So rest your head upon me, I have strength to carry you”

Ghosts of the twenties rising
Golden summers just holding you

“Follow me down to the valley below
You know moonlight is bleeding from out of your soul
Come to us, Lazarus, it’s time for you to go”

Soundtrack

July 14th, fireworks on the Seine.
If one song could have been played on that special day, it would have been this one.

Please take the time to listen and read, I am sure that you will enjoy.

Standing firm on this stony ground
The wind blows hard pulls these clothes around
I harbor all the same worries as most
The temptations to leave or to give up the ghost
I wrestle with an outlook on life
That shifts between darkness and shadowy light
I struggle with words for fear that they’ll hear
But Orpheus sleeps on his back still dead to the world

Sunlight falls, my wings open wide
There’s a beauty here I cannot deny
And bottles that tumble and crash on the stairs
Are just so many people I knew never cared
Down below on the wreck of the ship
Are a stronghold of pleasures I couldn’t regret
But the baggage is swallowed up by the tide
As Orpheus keeps to his promise and stays by my side

Tell me, I’ve still a lot to learn
Understand, these fires never stop
Believe me, when this joke is tired of laughing
I will hear promise of my Orpheus sing

Sleepers sleep as we row the boat
Just you the weather and I gave up hope
But all of the hurdles that fell in our laps
Were fuel for the fire and straw for our backs
Still the voices have stories to tell
Of the power struggles in heaven and hell
But we feel secure against such mighty dreams
As Orpheus sings of the promise tomorrow may bring

Tell me, I’ve still a lot to learn
Understand, these fires never stop
Please believe, when this joke is tired of laughing
I will hear promise of my Orpheus sing.

(Orpheus – David Sylvian)

Lights

Music is an important part of our lives, and a crucial part of mine. That’s why I’d like to share this song with you. Be patient, the song builds up slowly and the voice only comes in at 8:36…

I hope that you will accept to take the time, close your eyes and let me take you with me. And I really hope you will enjoy this small journey.

Much love.
Your humble guide, HeavyCloud

(I strongly suggest using your headphones, if you can)

“It hurts to feel
It hurts to hear
It hurts to face it
It hurts to hide
It hurts to touch
It hurts to wake up
It hurts to remember
It hurts to hold on

Turn my head

The hurt’s relentless
The hurt of emptiness
The hurt of wanting
The hurt of going on
The hurt of missing
The hurt is killing me

Turn my head
Off
Forever
Turn it off
Forever
Off forever
Turn it off forever

Ever blind”

(Archive – Lights)

No way…

“I loved you in the morning, our kisses deep and warm,
your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy golden storm,
yes, many loved before us, I know that we are not new,
in city and in forest they smiled like me and you,
but now it’s come to distances and both of us must try,
your eyes are soft with sorrow,
Hey, that’s no way to say goodbye.

I’m not looking for another as I wander in my time,
walk me to the corner, our steps will always rhyme
you know my love goes with you as your love stays with me,
it’s just the way it changes, like the shoreline and the sea,
but let’s not talk of love or chains and things we can’t untie,
your eyes are soft with sorrow,
Hey, that’s no way to say goodbye.”

(Hey, that’s no way to say goodbye – Leonard Cohen)

Arriving Somewhere

This one goes out to a good friend, with love…

“Never stop the car on a drive in the dark
Never look for the truth in your mother’s eyes
Never trust the sound of rain upon a river
Rushing through your ears

Arriving somewhere but not here

Did you imagine the final sound as a gun?
Or the smashing windscreen of a car?
Did you ever imagine the last thing you’d hear
as you’re fading out was a song?

Arriving somewhere but not here

All my designs, simplified
And all of my plans, compromised
All of my dreams, sacrificed

Ever had the feeling you’ve been here before?
Drinking down the poison the way you were taught
Every thought from here on in your life begins
And all you knew was wrong?

Did you see the red mist block your path?
Did the scissors cut a way to your heart?
Did you feel the envy for the sons of mothers
tearing you apart?”

(Porcupine Tree – “Arriving Somewhere But Not Here”)

Teardrop

Back from 1998…

“Love, love is a verb
Love is a doing word
Fearless on my breath
Gentle impulsion
Shakes me, makes me lighter
Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath

Night, night after day
Black flowers blossom
Fearless on my breath
Black flowers blossom
Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my…

Water is my eye
Most faithful mirror
Fearless on my breath
Teardrop on the fire
Of a confession
Fearless on my breath
Most faithful mirror
Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath

You stumble in the dark
You stumble in the dark”

Massive Attack – Teardrop

The Sky in a Room

“When you are here with me
This room
Doesn’t have walls anymore
But trees, endless trees

When you are here next to me
This violet ceiling
Doesn’t exist anymore
I see the sky above us

Staying here
Surrendering
Just like there was nothing
Nothing left on earth

A harmonica is playing
It looks to me like an organ
Vibrating for you and me
Up in the vastness of the sky

For you… and for me
In the sky.”

(Gino Paoli – “Il cielo in una stanza”)